Everytime....

I thought that I should give up blogging for a while.
But I realised that this is not the way.

My life shouldnt stop with something nor died with it.
My work shouldnt.
My habits shouldnt.
Though something died off, the world still revolves.

No matter how tough it is, what's personal shouldnt be involved with work and social.
Something that I've grow to learn.
So this is.

"Never boardcast your personal problems, it wont help others nor yourself."

I'm not here to boardcast my problems.
They wont affect you anyway.
But please allow me an avenue for my emotions.

Do you know how I feel inside now?
My heart pains so much.
I can hardly sleep last night.
I cried and I stopped.
I stopped and I cried again.
I tossed and turned.
I fear for the dawn to break for I do not want to face the next day. (coz tomorrow is worse than today. Tomorrow depicts the results of yesterday.And it's not so good.)
And I dunno how should I end my day.

I finally fell asleep.
Woke up with my puffy eyes.
The morning doesnt look much different to me.
My mum long left for work.
My bro is getting ready for school.
My dad woke up a few minutes before I left for work.

It looks the same.
But it is not.

I struggled through work.
My head ached all time.
I went to tuition.
I knew there's no dinner.
There wont be any more dinner from today onwards.
Not that this family needs any...anymore.

When I finished tuition.
I went home.
Home.
Home.
Home.
Home.
Home.
Home.
Home.




HOME!!!!!!!!!

Is this a home!

Is this still a home?

Grief consumes my heart.

As I am typing right now, I fight with all my might not to shed one more tear.
Not to shed one more tear.

I dunno where else to go tomorrow and the rest of the days after work.

Maybe I will just walked around.

Returning is just an obligation to mark my attendance.

Maybe I will go library.
Isnt that I wanted?

Yea..for some good books.

What else should I blog?

Um..

For the people I love, I still love.

Too many broke my heart recently.

And they are the ones I love most.

Isnt this so ...clinche, so outta drama?

Dont worry.

I will be fine.

You know.

Like they say.

You come to this world ... really alone.

You will leave alone one day.

And you really should depend on yourself to stand up in times of adversity.

Cos...

Should everyone that I love leave me one day, I must still stand up and live on.

All by myself.





















Why is it always like that?


Ironically...

James blunt "Your Beautiful" is playing.

Suddenly I am listening to it with the twist.

Love yourself,isnt it?






















Wo zhen de hao nan guo.




Hao nan guo.




Hao nan guo.